I’ve always been a really lazy model. I don’t get my eyebrows waxed every other week or have my nails done on a regular basis. I’ve never had a facial or eyelash extensions and I hardly ever work out. But there is such an overwhelming need to constantly look and feel perfect all the time and yet the idea of perfection is so far out of reach for most of us. Many people would describe being “beautiful” as having perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect teeth and the perfect waist with perfect eyebrows.
As a model I’m always looking in the mirror or at photographs of myself and seeing all of my flaws right there in front of me, and I think to myself “if I can see all my flaws so easily so can everyone else.” There’s a constant pressure to maintain this perfect idea of what a model should be. Sometimes I want to fix everything, I want to get eyelash extensions and have my nails done, go to the gym and get a spray tan, but after several minutes of picking my flaws apart one by one I realise my flaws are what make me unique.
The goal isn’t to be society’s ideal vision of beauty, but to be happy in your own skin. You don’t have to be perfect to be beautiful and you don’t have to love your flaws, you just have to embrace them as a part of who you are.
I’ve never considered myself to be conventionally beautiful and I spent a long time trying to “fix” myself to fit into the cookie-cutter idea of society’s ideal beauty. Once you’re able to accept yourself as who you are and know that it’s okay to work on yourself to become a better YOU and that you don’t have to mold yourself into a different person you’ll become much happier and much more beautiful than the person who you were trying to be. After all, beauty isn’t really measured by what’s on the outside, a beautiful person has a beautiful soul that shines through their body and lights up everyone around them.
Photographer: Nathaniel Gerdes @nathanielgerdes
Model: Chelsea @chelsea__nicolette